Meg Logan’s Blog

“How do you know who you are?”

Anyone can know who they are by reading the Word, and reflecting on it.

But when I first began to read the Word I started, by reading what a woman was like, in God’s design. I read the Proverbs 31 passage on a godly woman. I read Ephesians 5 about a woman’s role at home, and Titus 2 about what older women ought to teach younger. And I learned that I am supposed to be:

1. Submitted to Christ
2. Submitted to the Word
3. Submitted to my husband
4. a keeper at home
5. a mother
6. a friend
7. I ought to have a meek and gentle spirit
8. I should have a teachable spirit
9. I should be forgiving as Christ is forgiving
10. I should respect my husband while I allow him to love me

The list goes on and on…

Who does God say I am?

He says I am a child of God (John 1:12)
I am the light of the world. (Matt 5:14)
I am Christ’s friend. (John 15:15)
I am chosen and appointed by Christ to bear His fruit. (John 15:16)
I am a SLAVE to righteousness. (Rom. 6:18 )
I am a daughter of God, God is spiritually my Father. (Rom 8:14,15)
I am enslaved to God. (Rom 6:22)
I am a temple of God. His Spirit and His life dwells in me. (1 Cor. 3:16, 6:19)
I am a saint. (Ephs. 1:1. 1 Cor. 1:2)
I am God’s vessel, His workmanship. Born anew in Christ to do His work. (Eph. 2:10)
I am righteous and holy. (Eph. 4:24)
I am a daughter of light and not of darkness. (1 Thess. 5:5)
I am an alien and stranger to this world in which I temporarily live. (1. Peter 2:11)
I am an enemy of the devil. (1 Peter 5:8 )

He says that

I have died with Christ, and died to the power of sin’s rule over my life. (Rom. 6:1-6)
I am free from condemnation. (Rom. 8:1)
I have recieved the Spirit of God into my life that I might know the things freely given to me by God. (1 Cor. 2:12)
I have been given the mind of Christ. (1 Cor. 2:16)
I have been bought with a price, I am not my own, I belong to God. (1. Cor. 6:19,20)

And again these lists go ON AND ON…

Let me cover a few of the things that have changed since I began to accept and believe what God says about me.

One of the first things God pointed out to me was that I frequently had pity parties, and got depressed. The devil would point out my failures, and I started to condemn myself for not living up to Christ’s high standard. But we are free from condemnation. Once I read that, I said “Lord, if you say I am free, then I am free.” And today, I rarely get depressed, and when I do, I realize much sooner, that I have no need for depression, no reason to be upset. The Lord has set me free from condemnation! I can walk in that freedom. God really helped me out with this, by accompanying the scripture with an old hymn, “It Is Well With My Soul”. “Even so, it is well, with my soul!! It is well, OH it is well, with my soul.” Even if I have failed, (and the righteous man will fail seven times, and seven times he will rise again) Well, it is STILL well with my soul! I have blessed assurance, and forgiveness. I am free from condemnation!

Another thing the Lord started to show me was that I was a slave to Him and to righteousness. That I should value what He has said in His word, simply because He said it. I am no longer my own! I am a SLAVE. That means I cannot do as I wish, but must be submitted to HIS WILL. And where do we find His will? In HIS WORD of course!! This has helped me to trust Him. To seek Him, and His will more deeply. When you think you are a slave, and you long to please the Master, you begin to view the Word differently. It isn’t just a “Handbook to Life”, but it is a mandate. Perfect subission to His will, is always right! A few things the Lord showed me under that, were how I ought to treat my husband. Eph. 5:32 “…and wives ought to respect their husbands.” WOW, not just to submit to my husband “IN EVERYTHING” But to respect him too. Another thing was that I didn’t need to adorn my body in vanity. So, I rarely wear makeup, (Im not perfect, and I sometimes wear it to church, because I feel it is expected). I am growing my hair out long again, because I am convinced that the Lord gave women long hair as a crown, and covering. That long hair on a woman is glorious. I am convicted of wearing a head covering, because it honors my head (my husband), and is a sign to the angels. All of these things are constraints, that are freeing.

What a dichotomy eh? We are released from the Law, released from condemnation, but given some rules! Within those rules, within that fence is true freedom! Doesn’t make sense does it? But I long to serve Him as HE desires me to serve, and He is always faithful to both empower me, and reward my obedience (Deut. 11:26).

God has shown me that I am a vessel of His craftsmanship. He has created me unique, and separate. I am meant to be as HE sees fit. So I seek to know how He would have me behave. One of the ways this has changed me is that I now understand that He has given me knowledge, but He wants me to use it when He says. He has created me bold, but He wants me to be restrained. So, yes, I am willing to speak up when He tells me, but when He asks for silence, I am silent. (I am not perfect at this one either!!) I began to understand that our words have power. And that the Lord wanted to be the one opening and closing my mouth. So I lean on Him. It is REALLY hard, I have to struggle with this one alot. But I find, that when I am obedient, the words I say are said in a due season, and are more meaningful to the hearer. And when I am silent, I learn about other people, and myself, and I am far better able to hear the Lord’s promptings.

I have realized that God designed women to be keepers at home. I was never the sort to have a heart for the home, I had wanderlust! I wanted to be out and about all the time. But when I realized that the Lord has called women to be keeprs at home, devoted wives, and mothers, I prayed that the Lord would give me a heart for home, that I would desire to be there. And He is so faithful!! I love to stay home, I rarely desire to work outside of the home, or to get out of the house all the time. Come the weekends I am ready for some social interaction, but I am gratfeul that the Lord has made me a keeper at home.

There are SO many other things. I am still learning what it means to be Christ’s, to have His life within me, to be a slave to God and righteousness. But it is the greatest adventure of my life!

So, that is how I know who I am. I am who God has said I am. I choose to believe that it is true, and where I do not line up I pray that the Lord will change me, that I might better serve Him.

Peace,

Meg