I want to get pregnant
My husband wanted to wait until our first son would be three when the second was born. And it looks like my husband will get his wish.
Even if I were pregnant today, the baby woudl be born in February, only one month before my son turns three.
*sigh*
I can’t wait till the Lord blesses me with another child. Course, the desire of my heart is for more than one at a time… yes you heard right, I WANT Twins.
What a blessing to have two babys at the same time. Oh I know you are all saying “But just think of all the work!” Yup, lots of work… ah, finally I will be busy again! No more time to just cruise the internet. Or waste away in front of a TV set. Only time to WORK. I need something to do anyway, I have so much free time I don’t know what to do with myself.
Two babies. I cant decide if I would rather have two boys (identical) or a boy and a girl. I just pray I dont get two girls! Girls scare me to death! and two at a time! WHOA… I think I might just freak out. I have NO IDEA how to raise girls! Boys, boys I can handle, they rough and tumble, and you let them play with frogs and bring you rocks, and they are sweet, and it is OK for them to be a bit rough around the edges. Girls… You gotta raise them to be submitted to their husbands, I struggle with that myself, and I don’t know how to teach that and still be balanced with self sufficiency.
Although I think self sufficiency is over rated. Being dependant on your husband is a blessing not a curse, but in our day and age a girl must also be equipped for work if need be. Submitted, sweet, meek, mild, all these are qualities of a girl. And funny, they are all qualities I lack in.
I guess that is the real reason I am afraid of having a girl. Oh sure the cute clothes! the pink pink pink! yes, I love pink! But just think of that coy look they give you, that drama… I dont know what I would do. *giggle* But it sure would be a fun adventure!
Right now, I am hoping I am pregnant. We have been “trying” since February. I know that the Lord will open my womb when His time is right, but, soemtimes I just can’t stand waiting! I’m impatient, and curious like a child on Christmas Eve. As we speak there could be a little person growing in my womb, and I wouldnt even know it. Or .. I could come to the end of the month only to find out that there isn’t.
OOh OOOhh… I want a baby so badly. And I cannot wait to sing praises to heaven when He blesses me again! Extra praises of course! Because I am still grateful that He is my God, even if He hasn’t given me a second child.
And on the day that baby is born, the air in my room with SING with joy, and I will leap, and praise, and cry for a new life full of promise. Nothing can explain the feeling of joy that comes upon a woman at the birthing. Or at least that came upon THIS woman!
Waiting on Him
Meg
May 20th, 2005 at 4:05 pm
LOL…
That was definitely one of the most original, quacky posts I've ever read…LOL!
You women sure are nuts…you know that? I sat next to my wife for 3 births, and LET ME TELL YA, that just watching the whole thing, I can assure you that if I did that once, I WOULD NEVER DO IT AGAIN! LOL
But both you and my wife, MORE! MORE! MORE!
Insanity I tell ya!
Later,
May 20th, 2005 at 5:05 pm
Yeah, Rand! That is truly PROOF that the desire for children is from the Lord. Certainly it is not logical, considering the pain that (I've heard) is involved.
But Meg, I can definitely say that I share your desire! Even being blessed ONCE would be so wonderful!
May 24th, 2005 at 3:05 pm
I feel the same way Meg, I would love more children, I have felt that same conviction from the Lord about producing more kids but my hubby doesn't feel the same way so I have to go with what he wants but anyway…good for you. Just make sure your hubby is on the same wavelength. btw I came here through Rand's blog, hope you don't mind me commenting and saying hi.
May 24th, 2005 at 5:05 pm
I never mind people commenting! I consider it an honor.
My husband wants more children, but there is a limit to how many he wants. He only sees us having at the most 4. My hearts desire is to have as many as the Lord will give us, and to forego birth control, but he is not interested in that one! As a submitted wife, I use birth control when he requests it. Right now we are trying to have another baby…. as much as anyone can "try". But the Lord has yet to bless us.
Nice to meet you hope to see you back again!
Meg
September 6th, 2006 at 12:41 pm
I hope the Lord sees fit to grant you the desire of your heart soon. I’ll be praying for you-instead of fretting for myself.
September 6th, 2006 at 1:47 pm
Bethanie, I will be happy to hear that you are praying for us. Since this last post however, I have convieved and borne my second child a daughter! I am still praying for more… I have yet to return to my cycles, the baby is approaching five months, But as you can see in my comment just before yours, I don’t want to return to birth control ever. At this point my husband has not asked me to. Perhaps God’s timeing will be totally providential (isn’t italways) and perhaps it will change my husbands decision… we shall see.
Mrs. Meg Logan